I will admit to being so busy lately that this site totally slipped my mind. But I made this account for a reason, and I'm going to stick to it. I've met some great people on here, and some damn talented writers like myself.

So, big news for the year? I've evolved. Not just as a writer, but as a person. I've been doing a lot of "soul searching", if you want to call it that. I suppose I just got sick of not having answers. There are still many, many things I don't know about myself, and it's driving me nuts. I don't know my sexual preference. I don't know what I want to do when I get out on my own. I don't know who my real friends are. I don't know if I appreciate life, or hate it. It's really not a good thing that I don't know all of this by now...it's really disconcerting, especially with all of the stress I'm under about the ever looming move to Georgia.

Which mother is now second thoughting. "We can't afford it right now," she's saying. "I want to be out of here by February, but it might be longer. We probably aren't moving at all."

-_-

I want to move to Georgia. I didn't realize it at first, and I was throwing a fit about it because I thought I was going to lose a lot by going. Well, I've already lost just about everything I can lose up here, so what's the point in staying?

Okay, that's not true. I still have Anthony, who turned out to be a better friend than I ever thought he would. I mean yeah, he's got an attitude about everything, but he jokes around a lot, so I can understand. The only times he's ever pissed me off were the times he's either made fun of Michelle Yeoh or called me when I was asleep and woke me up (which is often, actually, because i'm usually asleep from about 9am-7:30pm). He hasn't complained about my roleplaying, when i've already lost a good friend over it. He actually goes to poetry night with me, and enjoys it (though it might be for the food...). He's never made fun of me for being a writer, when all I get from others is 'geek' and 'nerd' (people wonder why I prefer the roleplay world).

Shocking thing, though? All of his friends are people I can't stand, or people who can't stand me...and vice versa.

And then I have the poetry scene itself. Cheri and Robert are just...they are gods. They recently won the award for 'Everyday Heroes' from the RARE Teachers Foundation (which I participated in the documentary for), and I think they really deserved it. They definitely made a MAJOR change in my life. I was going nowhere with my writing, and somehow, everything just sort of flipped into place and I started moving.

I won Michigan Poet of the Year, for Merlin's sake.

...Random: There is a fly in my house, and he keeps flying into walls.

O.O

Alright, on the topic of books: I haven't been reading much lately, which is weird for me. I am STILL in the middle of the last Harry Potter book, although I know everything that happens anyway (I suppose all the spoilers took all the fun out of reading it). Although I did finish a really good murder mystery by Christopher Pike called Master of Murder. That was one insanely screwed up book. But of course, what got me started on Christopher Pike was his Last Vampire Series, and THAT was insanely screwed up (yet the best vampire series I've ever read).

I am in the middle of Seeing Redd, which is the second in a three part series by Frank Beddor called The Looking Glass Wars. It's a more mature version of Alice in Wonderland, and it is effing amazing. Alyss Heart, a Warrior Queen?

Hell. Effing. Yes!

That is what I love in fantasy novels. Evil queens, warrior queens...queens in general...fantasy lands run by evil people...I just wish evil would triumph over good for once! I cannot be the only one who wants to see what would happen if evil won a battle.

I should write about that.

On the topic of movies: I just recently seen quite a few movies that I just adore. Rush Hour 3, which was HILARIOUS! Stardust, which was a great fantasy film. Harry Potter 5 (seen that in July, but I never did touch on that)....LOVED it.

An older one I just seen is called Dogma. I do love Alan Rickman ^^ Imagine my shock when I learned that the voice he uses playing Severus Snape is HIS voice, and not a tweak. Oh. My. God. His voice makes me want to curl up into a tiny ball and rock back and forth chanting 'Bad voice..bad voice..' It's so addicting.

But anyway. Dogma. Ahem.

Two angels trying to get back to heaven go to New Jersey to cross through a chruch arch, which is said to clean a person's slate so they can start completely over on terms of mortal sin. If they die and have not committed sin, then they go straight to heaven. Bethany, the great times like....14, grand niece of Jesus Christ is assigned to two prophets (Jay and Silent Bob from Clerks xD) and the 13th apostle (they later meet up with Serendipity, a muse played BRILLIANTLY by Salma Hayek) to stop these angels from doing so.

I'm sure most people have seen this movie by now. Those who haven't NEED to. It's amazingly funny. Alan Rickman as the Voice of God is priceless.

Alright, I suppose that's all. I'm not going to get into health issues, because those are just completely out of whack. So until next time, I will forever be

Jessica J. Williams

P.S. Yes, I will load a deviant soon. I may upload the first chapter of my recent novel.